Thursday, July 27, 2006
mood: blank
music: Nakakabaliw- Pupil & Barbie Almalbis
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Grabe, ah... A not-so-revelation... Lumabas na rin ang katotohan... The long deliberation is over because I now know that... My recent crush, my pretty boy muse, resident AB heartthrob... is gay... And I don't mean happy...
I went all stalker-mode and checked out his blog (since my friend gave me the link which she got from our blockmate) and... Well, I wasn't ready for such blatantness... Actually, obvious naman kasi na, how can I say, bading siya, eh... So it isn't really much of a shock... But the few rumors lingering about that he might have a girlfriend kept my hope in his masculinity alive... But his posts quickly slaughtered any hope that I might have had... He's gay and he's damn proud... *sigh*
It's not that I don't like gay people, (pro-gay rights..!) it's just that I don't like liking them in that way... Parang instant rejection kumbaga... But I do have to face the fact na kahit na maging straight siya, wala pa rin naman akong chance sa kanya, no...
Total, it doesn't really affect me so much because (1) the fact he's gay has pretty much been known to me since I first saw him (2) various people have backed-up the suspicion of his queerness and (3) crush ko lang naman siya because of his immense prettiness, it's not like I love him or anything... So it's still all good... He's still a sight to behold so basically, crush ko pa rin siya... XD
Ang nagstrike talaga sa kin ay ang sinabi niyang di na mabilang sa dalawang kamay ang nadaanan niyang boyfriend... Grabe, ah... Daig pa niya ako... Haha... But mostly, it was a paragraph with something... I won't elaborate, but let's just say that THAT surprised me... I know it shouldn't since it's normal, he's not a kid anymore and he is, to put it simply, gorgeous, but it's not something I expected, unlike the gay thing... I guess I haven't entirely left high school yet... Hehe...
Sa totoo lang, parang wala ngang epekto sa kin, eh... Whatever na lang... I guess that's how it is when you're still hung up on someone... You can't really fall for anyone else until you get over the past... But that, is for an entirely different entry...
